I'm relaxing on a Sunday morning, in bed with my pets watching house of cards. Geoff is out of town in Arizona. We haven't really been getting along this past month. I want to say it's money related, but I feel like there are more issues lying underneath. I've been thinking about if I could end it and be happy still. He makes me happy but also stresses me to death. But I don't want to lose someone who I have no secrets from and I'm completely open with. I enjoy our home together. My crazy family loves him and I truly love his crazy family. Kathy is having a hard time with Frank and his drinking. This scares me because I can see Geoff doing things his father does. And I don't wanna to hurt like Kathy is hurting. It already kills me when he's drunk and has said that I'm useless and an idiot. That can't happen anymore. Only twice, it has happened. But I'm saying once twice. I'll already let it happen. I want to help him and leaving him for awhile, may help him or it may not. Then I'll feel terribly guilty as I do with anyone I care deeply about.
Now I need some me time. Shower. Shave my legs. Paint fingernails and toenails. Make asparagus soup. Clean up house. And pay entergy.
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